my day was good. I was able to sleep in a little longer because it's wed and we start school thirty mins later than usual. Trust me that does a lot to girls sleeping time and preparation time.

I got to school, did my little learning thing.

Went to lunch, got a delicious Pinnini :)) (so good!)

Got back to school, graded some papers that take almost two days just to grade.

Then walked across the street to Seminary.

Today's lesson was especially good.

And i feel as if it was directed to me.

It was about missions and helping your friends/others repent and gain a stronger testimony.

For quite some time now i've felt as if i should go on a mission.

Yes, it will be hard. I will have to give up my cell phone, my sleeping tradition etc.

But i feel it will be worth it.

I want to be serving the Lord while serving others.

I have such an enormous passion for my religion.

I want others to know and to feel the way i do about the church.

I'm not sure what i would do with out with in my life.

I fear i would be lost.

i have this friend, who has been repenting. And even told me he wants to go on a mission. but just yesterday, he began to tell me that he's not sure he wants to go. he's afraid that if he doesn't want to go and then goes he's just going to be a bum missionary and end up leaving early. This broke my heart. I love this kid. He means alot to me. And to hear this makes me so sad. My brother is on a mission right now, and he tells me all the time that he is so grateful that he went on a mission. It was the best decision he's ever made. So to hear one of my dearest friends say he's not sure he wants to go, breaks me. I don't know how to help him. I hope and pray he does. I know it will be the best thing for him if he tries and is willing.

“Character cannot be developed in ease and quiet. Only through experience of trial and suffering can the soul be strengthened, ambition inspired, and success achieved.”



— Helen Keller

melissa jane.