Letter to you.

Dear you

All day i have been dreading writing this letter, but feel that in fact it will help me share and express my emotions. I know you most likely will not read this but I would first like to start off by asking you How & Why? You hurt me more than i can even describe. not only did you disrespect me but you betrayed and lied to me. And to yourself. Also embarrassed me, in front of all my friends. Thinking oh little missi, She didn't even know he was cheating on her for two months or more. I put my life on hold just for you, for one year and five months. And the thing i get in return is you can't even be honest with me. Therefore, making it easier to let go of you. I still want to cry at times, but not because i want you back. That is not what i want. I cry because i feel bad for you. You have some issues that you and only you can fix. How could you possibly lie to yourself for this long? You were so close to going on your mission. I could tell you were happier. You had the spirit with you. Then you couldn't keep strong. You always gave me the excuse of "i'm not strong without you". This i now know is the truth. You really can't. How sad and pathetic is it that you can't even do things on your own. You always have to put blame on someone else or put all YOUR responsibilities on someone else but you. I deserve better, i know this to be true. I don't deserve someone who thinks that they can do things and not get in trouble. I don't deserve someone who will lie straight to my face and hurt me. My heart aches for you. I am not going to say that being with you was a regret. Because it wasn't. I learned that you are the type of person i am not supposed to be with and the type of person i do NOT want to end up being with at all! So thank you! I hope you learn to be a man and grow up. Stop putting blame on others and playing "pitty parties". It's annoying and pathetic. I don't want this letter to be of hate or anger. I do wish you well, in the long run. But as of right now, you are heading down a path that will lead you to darkness and misery. I really hope you can be strong and find the light again. I know you can. Good luck to you

Sincerely,