as months are flying by i get more and more scared. i take a step closer each day, to reality. i am soon about to face my own fate. within three months i will be graduating highschool and entering College.  i am very ecstatic but yet i have these fears you see. i have no job i don't know where to go or what i am supposed to do. i thought by this time in your life that everything was supposed to all be planned out. i feel as if i have been screwed over. with choices, decisions, and mistakes that have been graciously handed to me i am stuck. i feel as if a complete loser. i have no job, no car, barley any freedom. if i could move out, i would a few weeks after graduation. but i can't. i have no savings. and apparently no writings skills to get me scholarships. my little sister looks down upon me. i feel completely stuck in mud. growing up is harder than i have ever expected..