I give my deepest apologize to any "downer" post that i might just spill my guts to you. They aren't very uplifting and not at all happy. But i must admit that my lackadaisical attitude and thoughts are the honest truth. I have been stuck on what i should in life. I have been praying and reading my scripstures as necessary. But have not seemed to get any sort of answer. The weird thing about this situation is just a few months ago i thought living here and going to Mcc was the right thing to do. But within the past month everything is not falling into place, in fact it's doing the exact opposite. I asked my brother today, who has the most amazing testimony ever, what i should do. I told him my problem of me staying here with barley and transportation and having to take out a loan to go to school or go up to utah with him and my mom and possibly go to UVU. My brother wrote me back saying "Well revelation changes all the time! That's what is so great about it. Just make a list of all the pros and cons of staying or going think about it, make a decision and then take it to the Lord and ask if it's right". I love my brother. He is the most amazing kid i know.
(If any of you ladies a. live in utah and b. want to date someone with an incredible testimony. I can hook you up :) )
the transition into college can be super rough. so many big choices to make all at the same time and all of them greatly affect our future. pretty sure everyone struggles with it. i sure did. when i was reading this i was reminded of something that for so long i never understood. when coming to the lord with a question you must make the decision yourself and them ask him what he thinks rather than asking him to choose for us. prayer is real and it is amazing. i know you'll figure things out :]
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