Dear Family,

As of recent actions and words that have been said and done, I now officially do not feel like I am apart of a Home. Yes, I have some blame to share. But, I do believe that this entire situation has been taking way too far! I was completely humiliated while in the presence of extended family and a dear friend. I have apologized to my father for dis-obeying him. This whole thing had been between me and my father. Not you or anyone else. I have said sorry, but still do not think it is right that I have been punished for my writing. This blog is where I freely write and express my emotions. If you do not like what I write or say, simply click the Red "X" at the top right of the screen. I am not forcing you to read what I post. I do not know what else you guys expect of me. I truly NEVER thought this is what would happen to such a close "family unit". I am trying to turn the other cheek and see where you guys are coming from. But all this hate that is being shown forth in towards me is not a way for me to show my love or apologizes. I really am deeply sorry for offending any of my family. I blog so I can let out my emotions that are built up inside of me at that moment in time. I have never once stated that I hated this family or said I was just "using" them. I love this family. You guys took me in when I need to be cared for. Thank you for that! But not once was has the thought ever crossed my mind to just use you guys. Apparently, I am not wanted nor accepted here anymore. Do not worry, I will be out of your sight and lives in 48 days. I'm sorry I wasn't able to mold into your family as perfectly as you wanted. I tried my best and for a little while I was a perfect fit. But now I am just out in Limbo not sure as to what you guys want of me. I'm sorry again for all the pain I have caused. I'm sorry.