day 27,

talk about your siblings.


Oh yay. The one time i can actually write about how awesome my siblings without anyone feeling like it’s completely random. 


well lets start off with my squeester. Nikki, aka boom, aka, cole, aka nicole. She is probably one of my ultimate bestest good friend. At first she was just my sister. Ya know, we were just blood related and i was her little sister that she had the right to tease. She went off to college while i was still in Elementary. She was gone for four or so years then decided to move back home. That is when our relationship started to really form. We talked a little more and hung out a little. We moved to a different state with my mother and that is when we really started to depend on each other. We became really close. not only because we had to share a room so we were literally “close” but we needed each other. She became my crutch. She went out of her way to do things for me. And still, to this da,y she does. I love her more than anything. She’s my secret keeper. My best friend. & she is pretty awesome. I mean come on she knows exactly what i’m thinking. That’s pretty cool.

My dearest ginger brother. Ughh, how i wish i showed how appreciative i was/am a little better. This kid does everything! Once my father left when over 13 years ago, he instantly became the man of the house. He ALWAYS puts others first. Which is very inspiring. I hope i can be like him. His sense of humor is probably what keeps my family going. I really do appreciate and love my brother. I still remember when i was in Jr. High, there was a time i was on the phone with my dad & my father not exactly having good communication skills?. Kind of hurt me. I just remember crying while on the phone with him and my brother coming into the room took the phone hung it up and just hugged me. I will never ever forget that. Him showing how much he cared for me that day was amazing. I have no clue if he remember that day. but i do very clearly. That’s when i knew my brother will always be there for me.

I also have three step-siblings & one half sister. I consider them all my siblings. Without any of the step or half. I really miss them. I messed up big time this past year and hurt them. I was angry & confused. I said hurtful things. And had already been forgiven several times in the past. So this time i’m sure they are done with trying to forgive and forget.It kills me to know that i hurt them that bad.  I am deeply sorry. And want them to know i love them no matter what. I still cry just knowing that i messed things up with them. But i really do love them.

*I am missing one of my other brother.*